So this is what it's come to? Breaking into people's houses and stealing food?  Oh, how the mighty have fallen.

There's something comforting about last legs.

In better days I've been known to listen
I go to waste all my time is missing

I'm mapping out my ending,
it's never gonna happen now
These things are condescending
with everybody backing down

You pray to stars that can help you get by
And all at once you forget to try

I'd go there if you let me,
they're never gonna find me now
My life is always empty
and in and out of doubt

Your not coming back for me, these things they will never be
I'm so used to being wrong, so put me where I belong

I'll get back to you,
God knows I try,
but I still lose
And I get back to you,
these days run by,
but I still lose

Angels say they can make you suffer
They give and take like a vicious lover

When all this loses meaning,
You'll never want it back somehow
Awake but still I'm dreaming
And never waking up

Alone...Where I'm not alone

Unfortunately I have no interest in Super Mario 3D World. I can't even be bothered to train up my Squirtle Squad - something I've wanted to do since Pokemon Blue and can finally achieve in Pokemon Y.

Allow me to sink a little deeper.

Tons of love for both. I'm just in a place closer to the version I posted to the original. I'm a beaten old man (Yeah yeah, I'm ONLY 25 but the story goes beyond that) and I am where I am, looking at it all and wondering what the point of it all was when I still feel empty despite all I "have".

Actually it's a bit different from that. I'm 25 - I've bought a house and will have it paid off within a couple of years. In less than 2 years I've gone from being unemployed in the digital/analog hardware design world to being a lead software developer for Xbox/Console development at my company. I've gone to the best tech university in Canada and passed with honours. I won numerous competitions in math and science throughout high school and got crazy scholarships all over the place. I've achieved every thing I've set out to. The world doesn't pose a challenge I can't overcome.

However, my mind is rotten. Because I feel no challenge externally, I've turned against myself to synthetically introduce hardship. I'm aware of what I've become and what is happening to me. However, I can't stop it. 

How the forums are making me feel.

On the plus side, I think Ive had 5 people banned in 2 days and one person un-banned. Hurray for cleaning.