I'll leave my job after I get paid on the 9th... Not going back to work until mid march... Life is good!!!

I can't stand school and work right now. I have no time to play "Zelda" :(

So there's this girl on my job. On a scale of 1-10, I'd probably rank her a four. Possibly a three. She's not ugly but she's not too pretty, either. She's got a weird shaped body. She's got at least two kids. But goddam. Usually, I can pick and choose who I want to talk to and who I want to ignore but it seems like this girl has already dismissed me!

If she were in the mall or in the club, I wouldn't look at her. I'd push her on the ground to get to her cute friend. Still, everybody on my job whom I think is cool is always laughing with her and having deep conversations and having the time of their life! When I get a chance to talk to her, she acts like I'm beneath her. She talks to my friends who are friends with her but she never talks to me. It's like I'm an alien or something. She doesn't joke with me, insult me, have conversations, or anything. She doesn't seem to want anything to do with me.

Why does this girl's opinion of me matter so much!? Why am I the outcast? And no. It's not that she's secretly in love with me. It's that she couldn't care less if I were alive or dead. I have to find a way to make her want to talk to me so that I can snub her and never talk to her again!!

I'm sorry, but Leela loves Fry. She'll never be yours, Zapp.

Why do I set myself up for these things!

This girl is on the verge of making me buy her a damn car just so I can be relevant to her, though.  I have to get her attention.  Nobody ignores me unless I want to be ignored!!

I wish that Fanboys never existed

Final Exams week. Bring it on! I've got sugary candy and lots of soda!

Thats not gonna help... not at all

Final Exams are here. I will leave a bloody trail of test papers in my wake. There will be no mercy.

I used to dumb myself down in conversations so that I could fit in with my peers. Then, there became a time when they all seemed to become more intelligent while I was still trying to play dumb. The problem was, by playing dumb, I became dumber.

Then, there was a time where I was surrounded by intellectuals and people with more focus. I felt inferior and so, I over compensated by speaking about topics I really didn't have a real opinion on. I eventually began to read a lot more and became what I wanted to be.

Now, it seems that I am once again too smart for the room-and at the same time, not smart enough. By being the real me, I find it hard to fit in with a lot of my co-workers. The "cool crowd" thinks I'm too brainy. The political crowd thinks I'm too out of touch. The geeky crowd....well, they don't exist.

It's too late in life for me to be feeling like an awkward kid so, starting tomorrow, I'm just going to stop trying to fit in and start being me again. I'll be a lot happier that way.