So there's lots on my mind as of late. Most (actually all) of it seems trivial from a logical point of view but hardly does the mind get to pursue logic.
Since last time...
- Still unemployed and now I'm finding it hard to even try.
- At least I'm gaining weight now. I finally understand how one can be led to fill that bottomless, unfillable hole in one's self with food.
- My legs and feet are aching when I have to stand/walk probably due to mass atrophy over the last 2 months.
- I've got a major crush on someone I've gotten to know over the last month but chances of us ever meeting in real life are slim to none
I'm beginning to believe all over again that it's just not worth the effort most of the time.
Try reading a book called "feeling good".
I used to be extremely depressed (had suicidal thoughts 4 hours a day, kept 100 sleeping pills in my room "just-in-case"), and that book really helped me (although I also went to a psychologist).
Now, the first thing that you should do, in my opinion, is to talk about it.
Like, really talk about it, physically, not typing it into the computer, you'll be amazed by the difference, and the sense of relief.
Second, you should try reading the book "the game" by Niel Strauss (and finish it) to realize that your love life can change, far beyond what you can imagine, if you need more source materials about success with women just ask me on my wall.
Now, several tips:
-Never be afraid to fail, because to fail is the only way to improve, you should try and fail as much as you can, not by not giving it all, but by finding new ways to fail.
-Whenever you do fail, ask yourself what you're going to do better next time, remember the lesson learned, remember that it's the only important thing.
-Stop caring what other pepole think, they don't matter, especialy strangers, you're never going to see them again, as long as they won't beat you, they can do you no harm.
-if you have problems having small talk with pepole, just go out, to shopping malls streets or whatever, and try having conversations with pepole, remember, your emotions will tell you that you should stop. push them aside and use your logic as your sole compass.