So pathetic. I can't imagine what your parents are going through.

What does that even mean? What are natural causes vs unnatural? To my knowledge no credible doctor will claim to know the causes of depression.  They can with some accuracy diagnose depression, they can point to possible factors that may trigger a specific episode, but they can not make a claim to know what causes it. The only current way, to my knowledge, to gauge if it is a chemical issue is to see if medication eases symptoms.

Become a chaturbate star. Be the gamer webcam chaturbate guy. Thats an entire market waiting for you to tackle it. 

Why do you think I'm even in this position.

I already said it's due to life circumstances, not some chemical inbalance in the brain. You don't have to believe me, but I'm definitely not taking meds again.

No.

Maybe volunteer at the local shelters for animals or homeless?

Or sit outside in the sun, feel the breeze, read a book, or write one?

Pursue a hobby, and make it a career?

Take up photography, and appreciate the beauty of this world?

I don't believe you.  Not that you couldn't be right, but based on my knowledge of psychology, I don't believe a doctor can determine that.  It's a chicken and egg problem that they have not solved.

I've had the feeling when I was around 20/21 years old. It eventually went away after a while but I'm not sure if that's helpful advice (to just wait and see if it goes away).

It worked! You should be a motivational speaker. And now, nap time!!

Well, that's honestly not a valid option.  People have their beliefs on what they think happens after we die, yet while also forgetting how connected we all are.  So much that I've come to the conclusion that we end up reliving the same life, making the same decisions we'd made previously.  The only reason to argue against it is human emotion not wanting to believe that.

Sure, I could be wrong.  But at the end of the day, I have nothing to go off of to say that's not what's going on.  My life is just another repeat on the endless loop of doing the exact same thing.  I don't want to go into deep details.  It's taken me 10 years to come to that conclusion, and I've already heard every "but what if," and "why is it that xyz.."

I've been there before too, honestly, and so, I'm not going to test that theory.  Just find a way to make yourself happy and live your best life, because it's possible you'll do it all again, and lead yourself back to what caused the suicide again.

Think about it.  Being on an endless loop of unhappiness and killing yourself and never knowing you were on path to do it forever.  Find a way to make yourself happy...  Just in case.

Why the negativity about being unable to get a job because you've lost 2? A ton of people have lost 2 jobs, and I can absolutely assure you, every place you walk by is hiring. A "job" doesn't have to mean some highly stressful professional career that requires all this previous work experience.

Go work at a video game store. Go work at a gas station. Go work at a golf course mowing.

Contrary to your belief, you can absolutely get a job, it's just clearly not the ones that you are applying for (and your info regarding how you got your last 2 is consistent with how it works...my last job I sent 100s of applications, got maybe 2 calls back, and finally got a job lined up).