Sorry that life isn't good to you. I hope things will light up in the future.
I am not the best in relationship advice, but the thing about heartbreak that helped me: I started to look at the time we had and be thankful for it instead of lamenting the loss of a possible future. Don't know if it helps you or not, it was right for me. In either case it takes some time to get over heartbreak, so don't push yourself.
For general life things: if you are at a point in life that feels not good, maybe you need to change something. Can't say what is the right place for you, but some shakeup in your life might help. Probably best to wait until the heartbreak is reduced, because that makes us do stupid stuff sometimes.
And a big thanks to you for hosting the Greatest Game Event these past years. This is the thing I look most forward to in this forum and it helps me remember why I game: because of the joy some games bring me. And the event is a way to express this joy and share it with others. So a big thank you to you, this did a lot for me!
Sorry that I feel inadequate to take over. I am kinda liking numbers and statistics, but hosting the event involves much more and I do not feel up to the task. Also in my job customers need to do stuff till the end of the year, so usually the workload is increasing at the end, and that is the time for the event as well. If I am overwhelmed I have the tendency to fall off the face of the world to get off my problems, and it would be bad for the event if the hoster goes MIA in the middle of it. So I am sorry not taking that, I hope someone else will do it.
Anyways, I wish you the best in whatever life decisions you chose to make. I hope you find happiness, stability and security. I think we all deserve that.
