If you were with her for that long and you posted on here 11k times it's likely that it was known to her that you visit and post on here. I'm just saying that it might not be the best of ideas that you post openly about such a thing, I've a feeling you'll wanna edit this post back to an "onwards and upwards" type of post in a couple of days, I know I did and you'll honestly feel better off looking towards the future rather than back at the past and thinking what could have gone differently.
Onwards and upwards!
Also advice that I got from the 80+ year old mother of one of my mates after my big blow out a few years ago, "the best way to get over a girl, is to get under another" Was great advice that!
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