Externally sure.

Right now I'm working Night shift at a convience store when I have a college degree.

I'm doing so because my girlfriend is going to graduate school, and when she's done, she's likely to be the main bread winner.

A lot of people would see that as being a failure as a man.

I'll likely never surpass my Dad's earnings and quite honesty, I'm too selfish about wanting to have my free time to be anywhere as near good a man as he was.

And as a side effect of this. My girlfriend and I plan to never have kids.

So being an only child, i'm pretty much a step down and dead end for my branch of the family line.


Eh, I'm happy though so screw it. Only one of us could go to college, and my girlfriend cared a lot more about "Doing something" and even if her degree doesn't lead to a job at least she can say she tried... and live without that regret.

It's worth all that shit to me.

focusing on external benchmarks is pointless... just relaxing, being yourself and being happy with yourself. That's the way to live.

I always thought you would have an incredibly complicated and high paid job. You seem to know alot of stuff...

I was kind of a loser in grade 7 and grade 8. I went to a small school so didn't know too many people and I played a ton of video games then. But I got good friends partway into Grade 9 and I'd say from then on I went from loser to average joe.

How do you think I have the time to stay informed on so much?  

Seriously though be fair... I could of had an incredibly complicated and high pay job.

I had a great connection with a professor who loved me who founded his own consumer psychology firm that did high level research for private brands and political campaigns who thought I had an inherent gift for the field. 

Had I not been going out with my girlfriend.   I likely would of went back for my Masters, got a job at said company, and be making six figures right now.

Or I could of screwed up in grad school who really knows. 

I'm not really a money motivated person.  Don't know what to say.   I'd rather my girlfriend be happy and be lucky to clear 15,000K in a year plus whatever she brings in.  ($40,000ish probably.)

Practically everything I like is either cheap or free.

Yeah, probably.
If there's one thing I've noticed about my life (not particularly long yet, but this looks to be recurring) is that I constantly think I was a loser in my previous stage of maturity (or something to that effect). I think I was a loser last year. Last year, I thought I was a loser two years ago. Three years ago, I thought I was a loser a year before that. And so forth.
Of course, from my current perspective, I don't think I'm a loser at all, but I'm almost certain that I will think my current self a loser in two or three years at most.
I'm actually glad, though; if I weren't a loser, then I would have no way to improve myself. And the grinding for experience is half the fun of getting to a high level, :D.

Haha. A fear of losing free time is why i secretly wish for a bit more leeway before i find the start to my career. Somehow i feel like there are too few hours in the day, even on days that i completely have off.

Likely it's my TV habits that do so. I leave the TV on almost constantly when I'm at home and not gaming, and i can always navigate my way through a TV schedules to keep shows i at least halfway like on in front of me from dawn to dusk. (starts with Boomerang, transitions to Nicktoons Network, then to Hub for My Little Pony, TBS after lunch, Hub again for another MLP, TBS through early afternoon, Comedy Central late afternoon, The Simpsons after dinner, then it depends on the night of the week for prime time, then Adult Swim or syndicated sitcoms late-night, unto SWAT Kats at midnight on Boomerang), and that regimentation seems to keep me from getting anything done...

Honestly i'm open to a lot of different futures, just depending on what my "launching point" is. If my first experience is "Teach English in Japan," i'll likely orient my career around Japanese language. If i move to DC: working with NGOs. If i get hired by a University: work my way to a PhD at heavily discounted rates.

Not now, my life rocks now.

In the past... yeah, probably.

 According to Tom, I am a loser

I'm currently single, having financial shortages for school, and I have overall less money because I have no job.

I BE NO LOSER, my confidence is too high!

You have a lot of potential. I'm in the same boat...

I've been 4 years in the field and still underachieving because I'm mostly apathetic to the whole career thing, it's the pressure I can't stand.