Weeds generally just makes an anxious person more anxious, speaking from experience. Booze on the other hand helps, at least in the short term. Can be a very dangerous thing though if you depend on that to ease anxiety.

What my problem is: breathing, as in I'm always thinking about it and cant stop paying attention to it and doing it, always trying to take a bigger and more complete breath thats feels right otherwise i feel really really uncomfortable; blinking, as in i cant stop thinking about it and i cant stop blinking constantly, like literally every 1 2 seconds,sometimes swallowing; fingers and toes  feel uncomfortable they can't touch so i have to keep cracking them; armpits feel uncomfortable in a shirt; various parts of body feel uncomfortable and i need to scratch several times, usually both sides of body, l cant stop sniffling and thinking about it, same with clearing my throat, and lastly this is really hard to explain but i cant stop like tensing  like i cant stop putting pressure if you know what i mean? this and the blinking and breathing are the worst, they are there every second of every day its a fucking nightmare. It's gotten progressively worse the last few mouths. Sometimes I double my Zoloft and or mix it with Phenibut. It helps sometimes for a short while then it comes back, it always does. Lately it's been my neck it's like I have to move it and I can't move it enough, like I'm almost snapping it before I can relax. I always suffered from Social Anxiety and that too is getting worse. I think about suicide alot but then my mind starts going and I think of what comes after. I don't want attention I just want to feel good again. I once had dreams and plans and now I just want to get relief. What's worse I feel lonely and ugly. What is fucking wrong with me?

Weeds generally just makes an anxious person more anxious, speaking from experience. Booze on the other hand helps, at least in the short term. Can be a very dangerous thing though if you depend on that to ease anxiety.

What my problem is: breathing, as in I'm always thinking about it and cant stop paying attention to it and doing it, always trying to take a bigger and more complete breath thats feels right otherwise i feel really really uncomfortable; blinking, as in i cant stop thinking about it and i cant stop blinking constantly, like literally every 1 2 seconds,sometimes swallowing; fingers and toes  feel uncomfortable they can't touch so i have to keep cracking them; armpits feel uncomfortable in a shirt; various parts of body feel uncomfortable and i need to scratch several times, usually both sides of body, l cant stop sniffling and thinking about it, same with clearing my throat, and lastly this is really hard to explain but i cant stop like tensing  like i cant stop putting pressure if you know what i mean? this and the blinking and breathing are the worst, they are there every second of every day its a fucking nightmare. It's gotten progressively worse the last few mouths. Sometimes I double my Zoloft and or mix it with Phenibut. It helps sometimes for a short while then it comes back, it always does. Lately it's been my neck it's like I have to move it and I can't move it enough, like I'm almost snapping it before I can relax. I always suffered from Social Anxiety and that too is getting worse. I think about suicide alot but then my mind starts going and I think of what comes after. I don't want attention I just want to feel good again. I once had dreams and plans and now I just want to get relief. What's worse I feel lonely and ugly. What is fucking wrong with me?

First of all, sorry if my english is bad. Second, you need a diagnosis which can be done by a psychiatrist or a psychologist. They are not the same: a psychiatrist is basically a medic which deals with mental disorders while a psychologist is not a medic but an expert in the study of the mind, however both are qualified to perform a diagnosis. Usually a psychiatrist will give you meds and a psychologist will give you therapy: both or just one of the two may be needed depended on the diagnosis.

If you want some help right now I suggest you to look for help in forums about social anxiety because people in this forum are experts in videogames and may have not experience in this kind of stuff.

Finally I suggest you to read carefully this two articles in the wikipedia, which can help you to get more information, the first one is about OCD and the second one about tourette, Based on the info you provide I think you may have one of those or the two (I was diagnosed the two on my childhood):

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive%E2%80%93compulsive_disorder
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tourette_syndrome

As a personal advice, don't pay attention to people who belittles your actual condition, says it's normal or propose illegal drugs or alternative medicine. Look for profesional advice!. I know this kind of stuff can cause a lot of suffering from my personal experience.

Greetings