That's a good way of looking at it. Thank you. 

The "Ring of Steel" (Quarantine) on my city finally lifts today, and next weekend I'll be able to see my Mum and step-Dad for the first time in more than 5 months, and do all those normal little things like dinner, a movie, and just hanging out as a family that we haven't been able to do in months. I've really missed them.

A friend of mine from high school committed suicide yesterday. It was so unexpected; she'd fought depression on and off for several years but never mentioned ending her life and didn't seem any worse off than usual.

She left behind three young kids; just the day before she posted photos of herself with them to Facebook. I've been looking at those photos, wondering if when she took them she'd decided to end it. 

I've had friends and family members pass away before from illness and accidents, but this is the first time somebody I've known well has killed themselves. It doesn't feel real. I know it's not my fault and there is probably nothing I or anyone else could've done to stop it, but I still feel like I should've noticed some hint as to what was coming.

I suck at job interviews...

It must be in your head, because you present yourself well here, which shows you have the capability... I get it though. EVERYONE wants grandiose answers, even ****ing McDonalds. I think people with half a brain can be off-put by the banality of job interview questions.

To anyone having a hardtime. I’m having a hardtime too. We shall overcome. God is with us.
I want to say....I don’t know. I feel your pain. And I appreciate something, that’s in here. It is abstract.

It is raining outside, yet I don’t feel cleansed.

I think I feel this way because I have not been in company with myself. I think I need to slow down and pause for awhile. Minimize the impressions that I pick up from external things.

I think we all feel that way, I'm sure you did better than it feels like you did.

Sorry to hear. We're hear for you man; you can always post here or even message me if you ever need to vent.

Remember, the darkness never lasts; eventually, the sun will rise again.

Something that worked for me in a time when I needed it was gaming. That can be a good way to keep your mind busy and focused on something that's not real life for a few hours each day.

Writing and speaking are two entirely different worlds to me. The first has marked my whole life, it was my calling since I was a teen, so with time I've become skilled in writing in Spanish and, thanks to my (rusted) studies in Translation, I have the possibility to try to extrapolate that to English as best as I can.

But, when it comes to speaking (even in my own language), it's like I was trying to communicate in Elvish. It's hard for me to answer accordingly, especially because sometimes I'm not sure about the intentions of the other person. That applies to almost every social interaction, but it's even worse when there's something at stake.

Also, you aren't too far off... My brain actually disconnected for a couple of seconds at some point (which didn't help much) and the interview was for a part-time job at Burger King. I know it's a crappy job, but I want to be independent again no matter what, while also self-publishing one of my books, saving enough money to do the same with other books in the future and keeping up with my projects as a writer and a wannabe indie game developer (I have studies of that too). If this or any other crappy job gave me all that, I'd be happy enough, at least for the time being.

I hope so, but on my way home I was thinking that I should've given different answers and, on top of that, I realized too late that I forgot to give the interviewer the documents they asked. They weren't necessary, but I bet they took that omission into account. I tried to contact them several times later, but I had no luck. All in all, I'm not feeling positive about this interview, but the only thing I can do now is waiting, so that's what I'll do. Waiting, while thinking ahead.

We wrapped up online mentoring this past week, and one of the kids I wasn't sure we were having much of an impact on said in the last session how much they liked getting to meet others like themselves for the first time.

This often seems to happen, the ones you're least sure you're doing any good are in fact benefitting a lot more than you might realize.

Thank you for all the advice! Regarding the qualifications, I apply to jobs with requirements I don't meet, but they don't even contact me.

Apart from that, I'm not the type of guy who gives up, but I need to find a good balance in my life: on one hand, the majority of jobs that appeal to me in my fields would seriously compromise the amount of time I could dedicate to my other projects (which are of extreme importance to me); on the other hand, I can't afford to be selective. So in the end I opted for kind of a 50-50: while I search for a quality job that would also give me that balance that I want and need, I apply to any other jobs that would give me something similar to that, but putting immediacy over quality.

Bold: job interviews suck, that's for sure.