Here's the situation. I'm in love with a girl but did the following:
#1. Humiliation
We were in a closed relationship and attempted cheating is still cheating. I discovered she planned to immediately sleep with a complete stranger and total pervert from a dating site. They were to meet at Starbucks but he never showed up. I actually found her there, threw the conversation on the table, and said "This terminates our friendship" before leaving.
#2. Excessive contact
I called her a million times and sent her many, freakishly enormous E-mails trying to justify and fix everything. Some were apologetic: "I'm sorry for everything I did. Please forgive me and give me another chance. Just talk to me." Some were criticizing "You treated me like shit. You only think about yourself. You don't care about me. You're manipulative. I hate you." Some were happy "My life is fantastic right now. I'm actually working on a movie and learning how to play the guitar. I hope you're happy." I never swore at her or called her names though. I tried to be reasonable but looking back, the E-mails are definitely obsessive.
#3. Didn't leave her alone
I talked to her and followed her while she was trying to get away. I even tried to block her path and hugged her while saying "I love you. I'm sorry." I thought displaying enough sadness would get compassion in return. I was wrong. She accused me of assault. I explained I technically did not. She tried to convince me otherwise until she sarcastically said I'm right.
#4. Rick Astley Lip Sync
Yes, that's right, I lip synced Never Gonna Give You Up and sent her the video. She hated it. I deleted the original video. Someone else uploaded it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96KD0Yk5Ia8&list=UUTe1DoOi71Rnd6gq0cjNraw&index=2
She also accused me of spreading Internet rumors about her. All I did was link her to my threads here and told her to see what other people think. Regardless of what I said, I never even mentioned her name. I'm prepared to cease all contact for a few months just to see what happens. She told me she never wants to see me again. I don't know if she really means it. I just want to keep in touch with her and will do whatever it takes. She does reply to my E-mails occasionally but mainly in defense or to accuse. Unfortunately we have to share the same bus twice a week. I saw her recently and she was wearing the necklace I gave her shortly after I humiliated her. She even still has my mom and former friend on Facebook, never deleted the comment I left on her wall a long time ago, and never deleted the pictures of us. I asked her if the "assault" is the main reason why she never wants to see me again. She answered "No, it's everything." Can the no contact rule still work if we're forced to see each other twice a week? And what could I do to win her back? I believe that the forceful bus meet can be used as an advantage. This is what I have in mind:
Month #1
I say "Hi" when she sees me and ignore her after that for one month. No E-mails. No phone calls. Nothing but a bus stop "Hi." Either that or I just completely ignore her for one month. Meanwhile I act happy, pretend that nothing bad ever happened, and resume practicing my guitar which she has yet to see. Occasionally I'd also read a book she gave me or draw. I'd basically let her see me do interesting activities. Make her realize what she's missing.
Month #2
Shortly after saying "Hi," I'd approach her and ask a question regarding political news or any other news she'd be interested in. If she tells me to go away I will do so and repeat step #1 again for at least a few weeks.
What do you guys think? How else can I use this situation to my advantage?