of course i'm not, u know something, sometimes i feel like blowing my head off like kurt cobain

Actually, yes. Could I be doing better? Probably, and like others, there are certainly aspects of my life I'd like to improve. Still, I've been enjoying myself lately, so I can't really complain.

this world really sucks

Why?

Because we build it up to be so much more mystical, magical, and fantastic than it actually is. We romanticize *everything*, and that crushes a lot of us when we realize how different the world is compared to how we wished it were.

That, and life has no meaning of "fair."

I want to answer but I don't want you to feel like I'm just giving you the cookie-cutter answer, because that's not what I have. This is just my pov, so bear with me.

Why do we romanticize? Aren't things beautiful the way they are without hyperbole? Why emo? Does it help? If self-pity helps, then by all means enjoy the emotions. But if it just makes things look less fair, then drop the emo, put on the realist. Don't let your emotions weigh you down.

The world isn't fair, of course it isn't. But has someone ever been fair to you, ever, even just once? When people are honest, do treat me with integrity, are fair, I am baffled. Then imagine how much you've under-estimated the charity you've offered others. Many virtuous people end up disgruntled thinking: "Why am I ever nice??? Nobody cares!" But if you cared, maybe someone else in this world does too, and hopefully soon enough the little fireflies will start to recognize each other.

Even some people on vgchartz have been good to me. They think I didn't take notice, but I did. And I see things even on here where people defend each other. I facebook PM'ed even one of my friends here because I saw him defend another one of my friends that was being brought down. Some of us notice.

At times the news and the way of the sheeple can be overbearing, but then keep your eyes open, you may find other rogues like yourselves in this odd aquarium.

I'm content. I am happy with the things i've experience, people i've met and physical appearance. However, my studies are going to shit and I can't seem to pick myself up. I'm also doubting my major so that's never good. Plus the world is going to shit and our generation is gonna have to deal with it full force.

I dont care

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