My day was...interesting. I just found out that I have a chronic illness. And while it's probably not the end of the world, not even that much of a big deal even, it hit me harder than I care to admit.

Mostly i feel powerless because I know it's something that will never go away or be cured again. I'll have to depend on medication for the rest of my life, wich means my chances to make it in the event of a zombie apocalypse have just been drastically reduced I guess.

On the upside, as long as I take my medication, pay attention to certain rules and lead a healthy lifestyle, I'll have a completely normal life. I'm not quite at the point where I can really appreciate that though.

That weird feeling of powerlessness still persists.

Thanks man! :)

I'm trying to stay positive, especially since it's really not that bad. Things are just a little wierd right now and I know I'll get used to it.

It's an autoimmune thing in my case. There's just certain things my body can't process and others it can't produce and i need regular medication and check ups to rectify that. Ka-Pi's diabetes example is pretty close really.

Honestly when I feel down I either

A. find me a good foreign film to watch

or

B. Play an FPS. (Seems like the only times I really want to play an FPS is when I am mad or sad)

Which shows for example? I'm going through a drought right now....

On the topic of driving, I just got my vehicle back from the shop yesterday. Someone pulled out in front of my wife when she was taking it to work a few weeks back. Both parties denied fault and it was an ugly process which worked out in our favour thanks to the police report siding with my wife.

Apparently the other driver was a young high school girl who had already been in an accident very recently and was complaining that her parents were going to kill her, so that didn't help her cause.

Even though it worked out in our favor, f@#! AllState, taking forever to come to a decision and then making me jump through hoops to get the money to the mechanic, making me call them up several times to extend my car rental when the mechanic was taking longer than expected (not sure if this is a thing only in my area, but there was a huge worker's strike for mechanics in my area where mechanics were protesting outside of every major dealership, so yeah, it took awhile to get it fixed).

Bleh!

I'm not at the point where I can do that yet. Currently building the skills to get a job I'm more comfortable with. 

You should go to the gym then. You may get some friends there. Or at least distract yourself.

Oh and go out and try to hit a girl/boy.

Not if she/he deserves it.

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I know this isn't a music thread but I feel like this song helps me when I'm feeling down! 

Well...until the song is over....

Then I just replay it!