People suggested I should update on whats going on between Me and my Playstation friend, and I'm also going to give some feedback... and If you haven't read my thread about what happened this week, GO BACK AND READ IT. You won't know anything in this thread.
We haven't spoken in days after the arguement. Which is a day after I wrote the first thread. We started talking abit on Snapchat after she saw my Snapstory...
On Snapchat: My snap story was "I feel so sad" with black background. She messaged me "What's the matter?" with my snap linked to the message. I simply replied "About that one day". She says "oh... I thought you were mad" I reply "I was... and now I'm sad". She says "I'm sorry it happened". I say "I don't like being angry at people, But it was one of my weaknesses that got me mad. I disconnected my mic because I didn't want you to hear me angry". She says "Whats ur weakness?". I say "Being 2nd best, 2nd choice, I felt I wasn't good enough for you and you're my best friend on here." She didn't reply for like 5 minutes, then she says "Well you are important enough, you're the person I talk to/play with the most on PS4. It's just I haven't talked to the other guy in awhile and it was only gonna be for 30 mins... you are important to me". Reading that made me realize how much of a child I was being. Maybe its because I had bad experiences with so call "friends" in the past. I reply "Well last night I didn't see it that way. I was too shocked by the fact that you left to game with someone else when you told me to come online to play with you.. you're important to me too and I guess that's one of the reasons I got angry". She sends me a bitmoji of herself with a "I'M SORRY" above it. I thought it was cute and I reply "Its ok". She replies "that doesnt sound convincing" I say "Well I'm still bummed out about the whole thing. I'll be better later" she replies "good".
1 day later of not talking, I send her a message on Instagram and say "hey, I miss you, Im sorry for being such a child" She replies right away saying "Hey, I miss you too, its okay. I probably would have acted the same way if I were you". We started talking all hour, before I fell asleep (it was 3am) we spoke normally as we did in the past
My thoughts: Me and her are childish... thats why we're friends. We're young. Im 19 and she's 18. But we don't act or look our ages. My Mom says I look 14 or 15 and she gets the same comments from her family . So we're not mature young adults who have started their professional careeers as Lawyers or Doctors or anything. I think it was both of our faults. She was mad when she told me she wanted to play with someone else and I got angry at that. So there's no really bad guys. Like yeah she should've invited her friend to play with us (THEY PLAYED THE SAME GAME ME AND HER WERE PLAYING) or she could've waited until I fell asleep, or said a nicer way on letting me go. I should've just let her and accept I won't always be 1st priority or should've grown up.
And I read comments about people saying "Crushes, boyfriend, girlfriend" stuff like that. We're best friends right now and that's all you need to know and if there's more than friendship, I won't post my love life up in the air. So that settles it. The end. Thanks for positive feed back and advices!