Leynos said:
Not a matter of choice. I will die without those meds and without them I'll die within days to weeks. In that time I will physically suffer before dying. Ending it quick prevents that. When I first got real sick in 2010 the suffering was so bad I was begging for death. The pain and vomiting blood daily just wasn't worth living for. I can't go back. |
Hopefully everything works out for you, so even the theorical possibility of what you are writing here completely disappears.