zero129 said:
curl-6 said:
I didn't know how to walk away either; she was severely depressed, self-harming and suicidal by the end so I was terrified if I left she'd kill herself. In the end, I had to just gather my courage and say no more, I can't do this. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, but I had to save myself. I urge you to do the same. For your own mental and physical safety, get out. There are very few people I've disclosed my experiences to, because I read people saying things like "but you're twice her size, why not just stop her" all the time online. My ex hit me in the throat while I was sleeping; how was my size supposed to prevent that? She punched me hard in the chest without warning for not finishing a drink in one go, my size didn't mean it didn't hurt and make me feel unsafe. This all happened over 7 years ago and just in the last few months have I managed to finally overcome my fear of sleeping in the same room as someone else with my current partner, who is lovely and very understanding. |
Wow i almost feel like im talking to myself what your saying is like an image for me. I honestly know i need to walk away she beat me, blamed me done so much shit its not even funny, but i love her and really she has me pretty brain washed id get no one else other then her. And even if i know its brain washing im hitting 40 soon and she is only 32 and pretty good looking ya know. Im kinda thinking my chances of getting someone else good looking is running out. |
I felt the same way; in spite of the abuse I did love her, and she was 6 years younger than me and gorgeous. Trust me, you're still better off leaving. I recently found a new partner who is also beautiful, but gentle and kind. This time last year I was ready to give up and thought I'd be single forever, but now I'm in the best relationship I've ever had.
Don't stay. There's millions of good women out there. Save yourself.