| Azelover said: I lost my mom last year, after a battle wih cancer. A lot of other things are going on, but I don't feel comfortable sharing them. I've been trying to help other people who are depressed, because it's the best thing I could do. Very often I feel like I'm totally alone in this world. And I don't know what to do, except keep going. I don't have any friends, it's a thing of destiny it feels. There is a judicial case in the family, and that has distanced a lot people I loved from me. And pretty much everybody has left. |
Really sorry to hear that man. I never experienced loss at the same level as you did, but I do feel that after the death of one of my family members we had a similar sittuation, except it wasn't judicial, only an unspoken family squable. Feeling like you cannot get help from anyone around you, or not even the least bit of sympathy can be harsh, but if you manage to get through it, it will make you stronger as a person. It sounds cliche, I know, but its comming from experience.
I often find myself dealing with certain issues (on an almost monthly basis), that would have demolished me on a mental level a couple of years ago and they simply pass by now. So stay strong. The fact that you obviously have a great hobby will help you often, as I was helped by movies, games, music and literature in general.
And the sittuation with friends. Don't worry, friends do come and go most of the time. You never really know. Heads up dude, and stay strong! It will all get better! Untill then, game on 
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