I really don't want to get into the specifics as to why/how I became "famous" in my home country, what I want though, is to say that every since I did, my social anxiety has gotten much worse, to the point that I haven't left my apartment in nearly a month, with the exception of grocery shopping 1-2 times a week. I feel extremely isolated, both physically and mentally, because I constantly have to walk on eggshells - trying not to hurt or offend anyone. It is a frustrating way to live..
I have received an enormous amount of praise over the last 1½ year, not only from the people of my country, but the national and international media as well. And while it is humbling, it is also quite scary. E.g. after I did a podcast on BBC in March, I received a lot of nice and kind messages on Facebook, but also some negative ones, telling me to go "fuck myself", "commit suicide" etc. I know they are in the minority, but I still can't help but let it get to me.
To be honest, I don't know why I'm writing this, here of all places. Perhaps I just felt like telling someone..