Hello everyone,

I decided I wanted to share for my long time absence from the forum. Well around December of 2015 I had started to developed depression. It was due to the lack of friend support, bullying since I'm a infer, etc. now this got to the point where I became suicidal and very depressed so much so I was able to transfer schools completely and move to Nashville due to an opportunity by parents. Now you may be wondering, where the gaming part of this thread would come in and it was around the time of December of 2016 that I have gotten back into video games. Now while I was depressed I did not play video games as I was worried for my own self being. But one month ago that had changed. I had went to my friend's house and played one very special game, none other than Dark Souls 3 on PS4. Now you may be wondering how this game was affective well it was based on the fact that it made me think positively about different worlds and expand my imagination, I wasn't worried about suicide now but had grown confidence in trying to play Dark souls 3 the best way possible. So as a result I had found my passwords to here and Neogaf and have decided to get back into gaming again.

Now I just want this to be a lessen to all, whenever you feel down just remember that hope is always there in any shape or form that could turn that depression into joy. For me it was Dark Souls , and maybe for you it could be a different video game. Just know when ones are hard you will always have something or someone to look to for positively goodness found within everyone.

Hope you all enjoyed my little story about why I'm back.

Very strange, sorry to hear you felt that way man, please know that should you ever feel like you are alone and need someone to talk to you can always send me a PM, I'm going through some bad stuff atm but I'm always up for a chat.

I know others will come up and say, "Omg this is a gaming forum no one cares". If you see any comments like those, ignore them.

Know most people will be glad to hear your condition improve. I recommend finding other people on VGChartz to play with. Social interaction typically helps most people with depression.

Best of luck to you.

Thanks so much Kai and I can't believe you still have that polar bear as your avatar

Yeah, I can understand you. I also have a major depression because I suffer from a chronic chest pain and anxiety disorder. It affects pretty much everything I do and it's hard to remain positive sometimes, lol. I'm basically always in pain. Exercising (running, TRX, etc.) hurts my chest even more, but I still do it to keep myself busy. I went from 92.5 kg to 67.5 kg in a year or so.

Forgot to mention I take Prozac lol

Must be tough, though I can't really fully understand what you went and are going through, best of luck to you

and most of all, Welcome back! :D

Alright well what had happen was I was also diagnosed with ADHD around the time and had to reduce to this day Prozac which is an anti depressant pill and attention medicine. I had a compulsive disorder and anxiety was a very big part in inheriting depression in the first place. I would often during school look up the easiest ways to die(I was about to try the drown in small amount of water method but someone stopped me) so that is where it comes from. I also started to notice that I was being more separated from friends with worrying about my depression and not the good of others.

I take much more sadly. :p

I take Venlafaxine, Risperidon, tranxene and some new medication I'm only on since this week, but I don't know what it's called. I'm getting a bone scintigraphy soon, so hopefully they find something there. Although I'm not really hopeful, since I've had this pain since 2011. 

You don't know how important a good health is until you lose it. And it's especially frustrating when no one can seem to find out what exactly is wrong with you. 

Glad to hear you're feeling better.

If you ever need someone to talk to, don't be afraid to talk to us.