I'm gonna try to put this the best way I can.

People come here to this forum mostly to talk about games. It's a place to relax and have fun. So when I log on here, I'm not in the mood to talk about the death of a user's relatives. You know it's not what people want to see.

That doesn't mean you can't talk about it. We all need to get things off our chest sometimes, and it's clear you have a lot to get off it. I'm sorry about your uncle's passing, and your mom's stroke. It's genuinely saddening that all this is happening to your family, it makes me concerned about what will happen to you. If you're not already, I suggest you seek therapy. Seeing a therapist is not something to be embarrassed about, everyone should do it. No one, and I mean no one, goes their whole life without struggling with mental health.

As for the attention thing from earlier... I'm sorry, maybe I misunderstood something you said. It's often difficult to understand what you mean to say because you change topics too fast. When you go from talking to your mom's stroke, to getting attention in Neogaf, to someone's Dreamcast avatar, in the span of a few posts, it's just... It makes it seem like your mom's stroke only matters as much to you as this silly stuff. I know you care more about her and your family, but it feels that way because of how you say it. You can't just drop a family tragedy in the middle of a casual conversation about videogames and continue talking like nothing happened, it makes your feelings impossible to understand.

But it does make me feel like you're struggling with anxiety and depression, so again, please seek therapy, it will do you good. It sounds like you're going through a genuinely tough time in your life, tougher than most of us have had it, but I wish you and your brother the best. It will get better.

I really needed to get this off my chest and the thread would of been forgotten but People that hate me go to my threads to continue saying things about me. I stopped going to leynos threads since long time. He should stop going into my threads and trying to say something negative about me. I'm trying to recover not another session of dogging me. How can I be calm when I still have the same man that made a thread about me this year.

Edit: push and comment more other threads and push this thread down or get Ryuu96 or some mod to lock this if you guys can convince them anyway Lenos I don't ever wanna see you in any future threads I create posting negative shit. As for me I wont comment in any of your threads if I did comment on a thread of yours by accident I wouldn't go off my way to say any shit on you respect others first don't tell them some negative shit.

No one hates you bro. Not even a dislike. Just ease up on making so many.

I edited my post above. I don't have that many as you think. Just get off my threads I don't wanna see you again get that through your head your predicatable of what you feel about me.

@Leynos I reiterate don't come to my threads and comment if the previous comment was confusing you?

 Again no one dislikes you and nah you don't get to do that. Sorry your having a tough time but remember everyone on this forum has a story to tell and a lot of the time people are having their own personal issues. Anxiety. Health and financial problems. They just don't bring to to a public forum about games to strangers. A lot of people are going through a lot and just not talking about it openly.  I know a lot about depression and anxiety and know states offer therapy for low income. It will do you wonders.  No one is being negative about you. You just take it that way as you are hypersensitive. That's something I understand. Therapy made those senses a little more dull otherwise a few years ago I really would have ripped you apart for those comments but now I know where they are coming from and not offended or even slightly upset.

I was you a decade ago in many ways.

bolded if you already knew then you should approach me in a helpful way instead of what I don't like.

It took until this thread to realize, I'm pretty color-blind socially but also again. Most don't talk about their own struggles openly here.

K 

As someone who lost my mom in the course of my stay here on VGC back in 2017, after reading the OP and some of the follow-up remarks on the first page of this thread, I was motivated to respond (not a common thing itself these days). Have to admit that it took me a while to get passed the disbelief and anger stages, but I think I'm in a better-equipped mindstate now.

When I lost my mom, part of my response was to pretty much stop posting here for the better part of a year because it was all I could think about practically for a long, long time because she had been the closest person to me. Everything else seemed unimportant to me. It affected my job performance and my physical health too. I didn't think about volunteering her sex life to the entire internet. That wasn't a top-priority note for me in that moment in time. There were other things about her I felt mattered more. Neither did someone else close to me have a stroke within a month thereof. I guess that's why it's been difficult for me to even consider the possibility that your story is true; because I really can't relate to your response and find it kind of offensive. ...Okay "kind of" is understating it. It just felt so cold, childish, selfish, soulless, and frankly perverted to read, to say nothing of awfully convenient, that it just repulsed me. My original thought was to suggest that maybe somebody should accede to your repeated requests for a permaban just so that I don't wind up being subjected to any more of these kinds of threads on my lurkings anymore. It's wrecking my lurking experience.

*sigh* Okay.

Anyway, the more I've thought about it though, the more I've come to recognize that different people mourn in different ways. For some, attention-seeking behavior can be part of that just because maybe they feel more unloved than usual right at this moment in time without that special person or people in their lives, and you do seem like a genuinely lonely and depressed person. Maybe there is real truth to your story and I should be considerate and take it seriously rather than as a despicable slap in the face to those of who really do know what that kind of loss is like. ...Well okay, sorry, the unbelieving part of me came back to predominance there for a minute, but what I'm actually trying to say here is that I'm trying to believe you and that, if your story is indeed the truth, then just know that life isn't over yet, much as it may seem to be, and that you are not uncared-for! I do legitimately feel sorry for you. Like I said, I definitely do sense that you are a lonely and depressed person and those are very familiar struggles for me. I know what it is to need frequent affirmation just to make it through my day a lot of the time. Just...try to be a little bit more sensitive to the fact that other people process loss very differently that you (ostensibly) do I guess and might find your...method of communication...insulting. You're not the only person here to have been through this kind of thing and you're not the only person here with feelings.