Esiar said:
About 9 months ago, when I still played violent video games, I wanted to beat someone up just to prove I could beat them up. I also kicked a girl (My age group, not someone way younger) and never tried to clear it up (which I will do soon). I also lost my temper like crazy when I kept dying in the game (REEEEEALY bad rage quiting). I'm not sure if I ever said thank you or sorry and meant it, besides maybe one time. I boasted that I deserve to go to Hell (In other words, I joked about how bad I was, proving I knew 100% how bad I was in my conscience). I also had an extremely bad problem with porn... Really really bad. I also didn't care when people died tragic deaths, and I said something along the lines of, "I don't care because it wasn't me. I would only care if it was me.".
It got worse when I got more addicted to games.
So, either violent video games have a negative effect, I may have became a sociopath if nothing changed, or both. Oh, and puberty added fuel to the fire obviously.
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These problems normalle comes from the life around you, like if you have been mistreated, Abused, bulllied around or generally lived under a roof where you haven't felt a feeling of security etc etc. I just think Videogames might have unlocked your fantasies and what you wish to do in real life, that is caused by something else.
I know how it feels, i am sorta a socieopath as well, but i don't wish to kill anyone, beat anyone... i have just been bullied around since i was 6-16 years of age and now i have experienced so much pain, i have problems with caring how other people feel. Just hang in there and if you are afraid, go find a psycologist which is good and has a good reputation ( don't pay for someone which won't do anything good then to take your money ) it's hard but it's definetly durable. Go find some great music about peace, care, love etc etc... not this new wave of shit we have today and suck in all that posetivity etc.
Or that yous should find a way to steam, like an hobby where you are active, When i was in the Navy, had a lot of outlet and i had less problems with myself by just training. Training is the best form of Therapy and it ain't bullshit either and i've experienced it to be true. you are stimulating a lot of hormonal and other unbalance body stuff by training.
the feeling of security is what you need, a place where you feel sure about yourself etc etc. It's hard to explain but if you search about this in psychological information site, it will make a lot of sense
