There's only a few things I really care about in life. My body. My pad. My ride. My family. My church. My boys. My girls. My porn.

Okay I got that line from Don Jon, a movie I saw last night. I was laughing my ass off with that movie mainly because I kind of related myself with the main character. I'm not as extreme as Don Jon like watching porn on my phone or looking for the perfect scene, but I do watch it regulary, fap and repent after doing it. I tell myself I'll stop, but it never happens. I'm a horny person, and I begin to lose it if I don't release myself in like maybe 12 hours. It's been a day already, and it's killing me tbh. This addiction is something I want to overcum, but the urge gets to me every time.

So anyways, how long can you go before you begin to lose it? Do you also have an addiction?

I typically masturbate 4-5 nights a week, and I very rarely go more than once per night. In recent memory, the longest I have ever lasted was about six days.

I too feel guilty after masturbation. Not because I think it's wrong or anything, but simply because I don't feel in control of my actions. For instance, if I'm just sitting or lying around, then I'll know that I'm probably going to start masturbating in a few minutes. I don't like the idea of my actions being predetermined against my will, so I try to challenge myself to resist the urge, and get through the night without masturbating. I almost always fail this challenge.

I can usually drift into sleep while resisting the urge, but when I wake up in the middle of the night with an erection, it’s like I have no choice. Those are the worst: I consciously tell myself to “stop and go back to sleep”, but then I do it anyway. This is where the guilt comes from; I should be able to easily resist these primitive urges. I should have control over my body. Masturbation is also a sign that I probably have too much free time, because I never masturbate at the end of busy days.

I think I’m going to attempt another long-term run at resisting masturbation. I should probably start meditating to improve discipline and self-control. I’ll also have to find more activities to keep me busy with as well. Hopefully, this time I can last longer than a fully week.

I think I found the problem...