A lot of you people know me on here but do not know anything about my personal life . My life is so bad right now. I am all alone have no family, no soul mate,Im all alone in Chicagoland. My father game a place to stay and a few thousand dollars to support myself before he kicked me out because he married his girlfriend and she never really liked me she wanted to start a new family and didn't want anything to do with me.  My mother died when I was 13. The only relative that I ever spoke to was my cousin from Canada. We talked every day on facebook for the past 5 years. He even came and visited me here in America a few times. I told him about all my problems he said he is sorry and wished he could help me we share a lot of things in common we are the same age, we are both into history, music, games etc. But then a few days ago I go on my Facebook page and he's no longer there. I cant view his page. So I think either he deleted his facebook (most likely) or he blocked me (least likely). So what I did was i created a new facebook page with a fake name and searched him up and he appeared.. I added him as a friend to be sure that his profile is active, he accepted my friend request and messaged me, Who is this?? I told him who I was and as soon as I said that he blocked me again.  This disappointed me so much. I lost faith in everything. I trusted him with everything. He knew that I was going through a tough time and yet he decided to block me.  

 I have had so many friends who backstabbed me or stay away from me when I did everything i could for all of them. I am not a bad person I try my best to help people and never seem to get the same treatment in return. I dont really know what i should do. I am 19 years old live alone.  Should I start college and forget about the past. But its tough to forget about things because I was hurt so much, especially when my trusted cousin blocked me. I guess i just need somebody to talk to. Believe it or not you people on here are the only "family"  i have left. 

Thanks.

Following on from the other thread, when do you start college?

Mr Khan did actually lock my original thread. He felt it was too dramatic. I did edit it a little bit. But I couldnt edit everything because then I would be lying to myself and to you people.

Original thread,
http://gamrconnect.vgchartz.com/thread.php?id=172333&page=1#

I have the option to start this January actually. But have no clue what to study. 

When things went bad when I was 17 I left for another city and studied something, you get to meet new friends, you have a new purpose and in a new environment... I would suggest to leave Chicago and go somewhere else but studies is definetly a good option... people tend to take you more seriously when you are serious about something.

Thank you for fixing the thread.

College is a good idea, trade school would also be a good idea, or really even just joining a local club or community, like a church, a real-life gaming community, or a volunteer group of some sort. Making friends is easy if you know the right places to go (and/or have the right places in your area, but Chicago is about as big as you can get in the U.S., so you should have plenty of options).

It doesn't have to be college if college isn't right for you, though that could certainly help.

So your Cousin did block you... Ditch him, he isn't worth your time. Get on college man and start a new page in your book. Things will get better with time, you just have to push ahead.

I also had friends who backstabbed me in life it hurts but it happens, you need to put yourself and objective. A career that you would like to puruse will give you the focus you need!

Well that's good, not far away. Think about what you enjoy most and something with good transferable skills if you don't have anything in mind.

Is your dad letting you spend christmas with him??

You see if i wanted to spend christmas in his house he wouldnt refuse but I just dont want to see him anymore or his family. I know he's my father but he is dead to me, in a way.

Starting collage can make or break a person's future... There have been many people that went to collage but they went into something that they thought it would make them money but really, it only made them $12/hour even though they paid $20,000 for their education... So if you are going into collage, be sure to pick something that is high in demand and pays well such as Networking (if you like computer stuff that is)... You also need to like it so you should think of a compromise..

Also think if you can do something using the web, make youtube video's and see if they work out and collect ad rev from that, or make a blog and etc... Collage is only good if you pick the right subjects imo