Cobretti2 said:
I won't repeat what others have said as it already is sound advice.
I am not that great with words so hopefully some of this makes sense.
The one thing I did not see mentioned much is self worth. Sometimes you have to be selfish and make yourself feel valuable to yourself first before worrying what others think of you. The old saying you have to love yourself before you can love others.
What I have observed around me is that the COVID pandemic has played a huge part on people feeling the way you are atm. Hence why I think in these challenging times where we are more isolated then ever and disjoined from close family and friends, self worth is more important than ever. Fortunately for me the COVID pandemic hasn't been mentally impactful and that is due to another reason that happened to me earlier in life. In 2012 I hit rock bottom where my back was injured and I could hardly walk and my lower half of my body was tingling all the time. In the end I saw maybe 5 different specialists to try and help me but in the end it was determined that they thought my nerves were pinched and only time may help easy that pain and tingling and get be back to before my injury. I thought this would impact me for live however it took two years for me to feel better and I was isolated from the world living in my small apartment. The experience made me feel worthless and why I was even alive.
However as time went on the one thing that I kept doing through all that was talking to people online with similar interest (i.e. VGChartz). I kept my mind very busy so that I would slowly not dwell on my physical issues and worrying if I was useful to society anymore. I even found a job that could be done from home which kept me even more busy. Then I also found other hobbies to do that keep me busy but more importantly gave me self gratification when I hit my goals in those hobbies. The hobbies helped me enjoy life for me and not worry about how others felt about me and I stopped wondering what is the purpose of living. As long as I found internal happiness it didn't matter if there was some grand plan to my existence. Once my mind was more positive and my physical issues went away eventually I rolled back into society and mingled with real people. |
I hear you, and I actually do a lot of that already. Like a lot of the reason I play video games these days is precisely to gain new perspective on life. I have a couple online communities I know I can visit for comfort and safety too. VG Chartz is more of a side journey for me, but I do like it here as well, and you all have been super nice and considerate toward me here on this thread in particular in my hour of greatest need. I just feel like I need to find an in-person kind of space of that nature at this point.
