Given that 2017 started off with my wife cheating on me it was suggested that I should be depressed and go into therapy, after 2 sessions my therapist said I was rather healthy and fine and to just come back if I felt any of it getting to me, it's been pretty much exactly 12 months now and I'm still not sure what I make of my emotions towards what went down, there's days where I don't give a rats about it and just enjoy gaming and love my job, but there are other times where I consider what it would be like ------- to do something violent and bad, I'm fairly sure it's normal given what happened but fuck it I can't tell if I've ever felt depressed about it, just yeaaa.... bottled up rage seems to be my go to guy for escape.
I've not had alcohol in years as well, but more so this year I've avoided it because I dare think what a drunk me without full control over the feelings I have might well do, it's worrying in a way but just another thing I do each day.
Don't ever follow through on an act to hurt yourself though VG or anyone else here, regardless of what you might think, no one is as important on this earth as you, if your boss makes you feel like shit or your family, loved ones, whatever, know that they're their own person, they have to deal with that when they sleep at night, but you just mind number 1, you have just 1 life to live and don't let anyone else ever make you feel like that life isn't the greatest gift anyone will ever give you.
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