"I'm not the sterotypical gamer as I played a lot of varsity sports in high school and usually have a pretty large friend group"
Why do people still always mention that like all gamers are still basement dwellers? Gaming is pretty mainstream now, you can stop saying that.
Anyways, it seems like this generation is plagued with social anxiety, depression and ADD. It's hard to say who's actually, medically depressed. My sister was diagnosed as bipolar and from ages 16 ~ 20ish, she was prone to mood swings and other things that affected her behavior and mood erratically. She was diagnosed, got the mental attention she needed and now she doesn't even deal with it anymore. She still takes pills because (and this is not a competent, medical explanation by any means) there are imbalances of chemicals in her brain that affect her emotional state so the pill even her out.
If this has been going on for 10 years, you're doing yourself a disservice and harm to your well being. God forbid, you end up on the news a lone wolf who was "mentally disturbed." Get yourself the help you think you need and if you can't even talk to your friends on a real, personal way and discuss your feelings, I'm sorry mate but you got shitty friends. My best friend also suffers from depression and we always talk about how we feel on our day to day life and how we cope with any emotional distress in our lives.
My mother was also diagnosed with depression and she takes pills for it, seldomly visited psychiatrists/psychologist (i forget which one helps with depression, or both), and openly talks about it with us. Depression with some other possible illness, like she always complains about aches and discomfort in her body which was linked to her depression. I think you just got some demons to take care of.
"Trick shot? The trick is NOT to get shot." - Lucian
