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Baalzamon on 13 March 2011
d21lewis said:
Gilgamesh said:
d21lewis said:

 

What a way to start your day!

Jesus christ, I don't think I would of been able to handle that. Good thing you guys showed up.


Well, the guy still died.  That sucked.  All we did was keep the crowd back, direct traffic, and stuff.  Funny thing--I think I'm missing something that I should have.  Like a part of me.  After that happened, it had no effect on me.  Nothing.  It's like I should feel sad or something but I don't.  I don't feel anything.  I know nothing's more sacred than life but even being there as somebody died had zero effect on me or my day.

It's sad.  You guys sorta make me feel like a hero but the fact of the matter is that I don't want any one of you to be like me.  Things are different when you see how things really work--that the police aren't always there in the nick of time, that we aren't all knowing or whatever.  One of the guys on the scene even recognized me.  He said "Officer Lewis, you police up here, now?" It's like my presence alone was reassuring but I didn't really do anything.

I'm rambling.

You know, they say video games desensitize people.



Money can't buy happiness. Just video games, which make me happy.

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trashleg on 14 March 2011
Gilgamesh said:
d21lewis said:
Gilgamesh said:
d21lewis said:

 

What a way to start your day!

Jesus christ, I don't think I would of been able to handle that. Good thing you guys showed up.


Well, the guy still died.  That sucked.  All we did was keep the crowd back, direct traffic, and stuff.  Funny thing--I think I'm missing something that I should have.  Like a part of me.  After that happened, it had no effect on me.  Nothing.  It's like I should feel sad or something but I don't.  I don't feel anything.  I know nothing's more sacred than life but even being there as somebody died had zero effect on me or my day.

It's sad.  You guys sorta make me feel like a hero but the fact of the matter is that I don't want any one of you to be like me.  Things are different when you see how things really work--that the police aren't always there in the nick of time, that we aren't all knowing or whatever.  One of the guys on the scene even recognized me.  He said "Officer Lewis, you police up here, now?" It's like my presence alone was reassuring but I didn't really do anything.

I'm rambling.


Well I guess that's just how it is having a life behind the badge. You have to be professional in extreme situations like that. What good is a cop if he's running around like a chicken with it's head cut off freaking out during an accident? It's the price you pay but then again you are saving lives at the same time, you must feel good about that, no?

This.

Officer Lewis, don't feel bad. Ever. You had no obligation to do anything, but you did something anyway. That makes you better than a lot of people. No-one expects you to be superman, but you did what you could. And that is what we're admiring here.



Highwaystar101 said: trashleg said that if I didn't pay back the money she leant me, she would come round and break my legs... That's why people call her trashleg, because she trashes the legs of the people she loan sharks money to.
d21lewis on 15 March 2011

^^^Thanks, Gilga, Trashleg, and the rest.  Maybe it did bother me on some level.  I'm fine, now.



Mr Khan on 15 March 2011

Very selfishly, i'm worried that the Japanese crisis is going to interfere with my study abroad term there, arrival date of April 1st. It's interfering with my ability to empathize with the victims because it keeps going back to "this stupid earthquake is going to screw me out of my long-awaited trip to Japan."

 

Mostly waiting for the rolling blackouts in Tokyo to end and the Tokyo Metro to get all the way back up, hoping for a speedy return to normalcy in the city and country.



Monster Hunter: pissing me off since 2010.

d21lewis on 15 March 2011
trasharmdsister12 said:
d21lewis said:

^^^Thanks, Gilga, Trashleg, and the rest.  Maybe it did bother me on some level.  I'm fine, now.

Wooooo!!! I'm the rest!


I meant to type "and the best poster on the site, trasharmdsister12" but I accidentally mispelled best and somehow deleted the rest of my post!  I'm serious!! 



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SnesTea on 15 March 2011

I'm too depressed to actually post what I feel here anymore :(



d21lewis on 15 March 2011
Snesboy said:

I'm too depressed to actually post what I feel here anymore :(


There's a link to "boobies" in your sig.  Click on it and you should perk right up.....but if you don't, you have a bunch of anonymous people on this site who are willing to listen to your problems, offer advice (probably bad advice but at least it's free), and not judge you.  Hope you feel better, man.  I know what it's like to be depressed.



SnesTea on 15 March 2011
d21lewis said:
Snesboy said:

I'm too depressed to actually post what I feel here anymore :(


There's a link to "boobies" in your sig.  Click on it and you should perk right up.....but if you don't, you have a bunch of anonymous people on this site who are willing to listen to your problems, offer advice (probably bad advice but at least it's free), and not judge you.  Hope you feel better, man.  I know what it's like to be depressed.

Boobies never really made me happy :/



SnesTea on 15 March 2011

I just poured my heart out to this girl and it's like she didn't even care :(

 

And I think wow, I have it so bad when there are thousands of people in Japan without food, water, and housing



d21lewis on 15 March 2011
Snesboy said:

I just poured my heart out to this girl and it's like she didn't even care :(

 

And I think wow, I have it so bad when there are thousands of people in Japan without food, water, and housing


Well I can understand about the Japan situation.  It's tragic and horrible but at the same time, it's almost surreal.  It almost feels like it couldn't possibly be real.  And happening so far away, it's almost impossible for you and I to really grasp what's going on over there.

As for the girl, if you told her how you really feel, you've done all you can do.  Maybe she's not mature enough to feel the same way, yet.  Maybe she'll go home and think about what you've said.  If she's a worthy enough person, she'll at least tell you how she feels.  Or maybe it was just so much that she was overwhelmed.  She may have thought of you as a friend and didn't know how you really felt.  I've been where you've been before.  It's almost like you could explode if you didn't put what you were feeling inside out.  Maybe there were more subtle ways to express your feelings but you did what you felt you had to.  One thing's for sure--if you didn't tell her, absolutely NOTHING would have happened.  Just wait until the next time you see her and see what happens.