Has anyone asked you what you wante in life? I know the biggest problem i had with people is the fact they wanted to live their life through me which annoyed me. I chose what i wanted to do, although my parents wanted a doctor. Trust me, just by admiting this, your got your self in the right direction. Just dont be your worst enemy.

Well atlest you are trying to change by requesting help,that means you are changing you are trying to be better and you are not giving up.

I also had a lot of people telling me about how good I was when I was young and then the pressure started building and I got worried about not being good enough and things, but somehow I managed to get out of that spiral. . .mostly. Still kinda happens sometimes, but this thread isn't about me. I hope you can make some good and supporting friends.

Here we go again another my life is meaningless thread. You turn to computer nerds for help? lol.  Good luck.

Uh it wasn't really a "my life is meaningless". "computer nerds" can provide better advice than "sketchy friends". I love my friends but sometimes they keep dragging me down into things I no longer want to be a part of. Or require more support than I can provide. Two of them recently have had fresh slices on their wrists. I just pretended the cuts weren't there. I can't deal with that right now. I had one friend who cut her wrists when I was 17 and I ended up being the one with the responsibility of trying to keep her alive. What a fun time that was.

As for what I want in life, I really don't know. I don't have any dreams I want to pursue anymore. Its been a real problem. I find little things I have interest in but I never can find anything I'm passionate about.

What I do know is I would be a little happier if I could find a job that was less repetitive and engaged my mind more.

But thank you for your responses guys.

When I'm a gazillionair I'll give you the job of being my stateside PA, which will involve pretty much mooching around and playing games and browsing the interwebs all day. You also have to be nice to me when I come to the states. And by nice I mean pleasant, not 'Wink wink nudge nudge' nice.

You're basically describing what my life will probably be like a few years down the road. I'm the same way; both my parents are professors, I had great grades, aced the SAT's, high expectations and all that...

But my closest friends are really sketchy. I've been doing a lot of really stupid, reckless stuff in the past couple years that I never would have imagined myself doing. I'm probably going to end up moving back home after this semester, where I'll undoubtedly end up spending more time with my sketchy friends, doing reckless stuff, and working part time somewhere.

I think what it is for me is that I don't have a reason to ''fulfill my potential''. It's just not enough; my make a massive effort to excel for the potential to, one day, be happy, when I could be relatively happy now with a decent income and having all of my closest (albeit sketchy) friends around?

So I'm no therapist, but I guess you just have to find something that you're really, really passionate about. Whether that's a job or some other goal, it doesn't really matter. Just something to drive you onwards. I'm personally a pretty ascetic guy; I could be happy with the bare necessities and a crappy apartment for quite some time and be quite happy, so long as I was near my friends and got to do something I cared about in my free time (in my case, writing).

But in the end, I don't think that having a 6 figure job and accomplishing great things in life is a measure of success. Make your own goals, and achieve your own successes.

Moongoddess256's life = My life

Same here, straight A-student who in the end didn't give a shit and wanted to just party. I put it up to stress.

@ op..... Urgent counseling is needed. See a psychologist and a psychiatrist for assistance as soon as possible