Uh it wasn't really a "my life is meaningless". "computer nerds" can provide better advice than "sketchy friends". I love my friends but sometimes they keep dragging me down into things I no longer want to be a part of. Or require more support than I can provide. Two of them recently have had fresh slices on their wrists. I just pretended the cuts weren't there. I can't deal with that right now. I had one friend who cut her wrists when I was 17 and I ended up being the one with the responsibility of trying to keep her alive. What a fun time that was.
As for what I want in life, I really don't know. I don't have any dreams I want to pursue anymore. Its been a real problem. I find little things I have interest in but I never can find anything I'm passionate about.
What I do know is I would be a little happier if I could find a job that was less repetitive and engaged my mind more.
But thank you for your responses guys.
[2:08:58 am] Moongoddess256: being asian makes you naturally good at ddr
[2:09:22 am] gnizmo: its a weird genetic thing
[2:09:30 am] gnizmo: goes back to hunting giant crabs in feudal Japan
