You're cool, it's good to have you back. I'm really sorry about your mom, I can't imagine how horrible it must be to go through something like that. I know these last few months (or sometimes years) of someone's life are usually hell for everyone involved when you know there's a deadline on the horizon, but it's never happened to someone as close to me as a parent, and neither with someone as young as I assume she was. I know we've never talked much, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I can be there for you (not that I trust my ability to make people feel better). In any case, life goes on, I guess. Hopefully one day you can be completely at peace with what happened... I'd say surely one day you would, but I really don't know what it's like to lose a parent.