find the woman that completes me. Have a family.  Have a job that enables me to work as little as possible so that I have time for said family and my passion for snowboarding, surfing, etc

I would like my life to end now and not have to be forced to live another 30 years or more.

Head back to Australia, settle down with my fiance and start a new career or even just a decent job.

I find that hard to believe, considering the fact that you have the power to do so whenever you wish.

I just think it´s wrong to end a life that way and wouldn´t want to expose who ever would have found me to that.

I just feel that I have done enough here and the rest is just a waiting period for me to stop breathing

Edit: not to mention what it would do to my parents and brothers if I actually killed my self which would never happend since I feel very strongly that it would be majorly wrong.

to make my imagination a reality.

An end to to my near constant depression and pian.

Many women, followed by one woman I love. To become a famous jewelry brand or win the lottery and design jewelry as a hobby, either way is fine by me.

Well in short (I could write a very long book about what I want and why)

I want what I'm gradually coming to accept I will never have:Truth. Thusly the reason I have studied and continue to study so much religion, philosophy and science. But the more I study the more likely it seems that man simply isn't capable of finding truth (if there is any "truth" to speak of, if such a concept exists that is), and if they are it certainly won't be in my life time.

Nowadays I consider myself more of an existentialist. I continue to seek some higher truth, but am skeptical it exists. So I seek to embrace my own existence, as well as the existence of man and assign both myself and mankind as a whole some kind of value, while simultaneously trying to fight off raging boredom and the threat of emptiness.

In my wildest dreams I would be or would help mankind to find it's own Ubermensch. A person or persons that can help mankind lift itself out of it's current pitiful state to find a higher purpose, unity and mutual love and respect without gods and devils controlling our lives.

Well, that's the short version of it anyway.

Believe it or don't, my life is pretty awesome. I wouldn't change much. Really, all I want is an epic death. Saving a baby from a T-Rex or something spectacular! I'm not rushing it, though. If anything is guaranteed, it's that one day I will leave this mortal plane. I'm just living the dream until then!