A lot of you people know me on here but do not know anything about my personal life . My life is so bad right now. I am all alone have no family, no soul mate,Im all alone in Chicagoland. The only relative that I ever spoke to was my cousin from Canada. We talked every day on facebook for the past 5 years. He even came and visited me here in America a few times. I told him about all my problems he said he is sorry and wished he could help me we share a lot of things in common we are the same age, we are both into history, music, games etc. But then a few days ago I go on my Facebook page and he's no longer there. I cant view his page. So I think either he deleted his facebook (most likely) or he blocked me (least likely). So what I did was i created a new facebook page with a fake name and searched him up and he appeared.. I added him as a friend to be sure that his profile is active, he accepted my friend request and messaged me, Who is this??.  This disappointed me so much. I lost faith in everything. I trusted him with everything. He knew that I was going through a tough time and yet he decided to block me.  

I am not trying to end my life just because my cousin blocked me, there are so many other reasons. I have had so many friends who backstabbed me or stay away from me when I did everything i could for all of them. I am not a bad person I try my best to help people and never seem to get the same treatment in return. I dont really know what i should do. I am 18 years old live alone.  Should I start college and forget about the past. But its tough to forget about things because I was hurt so much, especially when my trusted cousin blocked me. I guess i just need somebody to talk to. Believe it or not you people on here are the only "family"  i have left. 

Sorry that its too long.

That's sad. If you have the option of college definitely take it, you'll meet lots of people there and likely make friends if you put yourself out there, could be the making of you.

How are you all on your own at 18?

Dude, life is hard. No doubt about it, but don't make a permanent solution out of a temporary problem. I do not think this is the forum to talk but I am willing to listen. Text me. 907-297-9446.

Well actually i just recently turned 19. And my father gave me a place to stay in and a few thousand dollars to support myself for a while, before he kicked me out because he married his girlfriend and she did not like me. She wanted a new family with my father and did not want anything to do with me.  My mother died when I was 13

Head to college, meet some new people there. Plus try to hang out with people at work. Half my friends now are people I met while I was working at EB Games.

You are all alone at the age of 18? Man that's tough.

You should go to college! Lots of people to meet and befriend! Also I doubt you cousin blocked you, are you really sure? Maybe it's a problem with Facebook :O

You should go to college, I'm sure you'll be able to make a lot of new friends, its where I'm making most of my friends.  I know it might not seem like it now but things will get better.

Life can be a bitch sometimes, always remember that. Believe me when I say that I was somewhat in your shoes at some point, the best thing to do is to just leave everything behind you and go to college or something. It's like what they always say, "life gets worse before it gets better".
And BTW, did you talk to your cousin after this? Are you sure he didn't just accidentally block you or something?

I went through life-breaking shit 5 years ago and I'm here. You can do it too, you just need to put your mind in the right stuff.

Starting college, you say?  That would be great. It helped me go through the hardest times, since I was busy with something actually meaningful for me.

What you did to find your cousin proves that you are in an emotionally unstable situation. You need to work on that before it hits you harder, if you can do it alone fine, but if you want professional assistance too then it would be something positive.

In my opinion, forget about your cousin, but don't turn your back on him. In the end, you are a loyal person. But thinking about this will hurt you more, so just start from now with something new, something yours.

Just don't dwell in the past. Your life is now.

If somebody agrees or disagrees with me, your comments are welcome.

So i'm going to go out on a limb here and run with three options

1) You're messing with us (least likely).

2) You're not *seriously* contemplating suicide, and this is just a cry for help, in which case feel free to open another thread with a less desperate tone and the community will be happy to give you constructive advice (i'm not trying to bully you here!)

3) You *are* seriously contemplating suicide, in which case i must remind you here that it is doubtful that anyone here is a licensed therapist, in which case this thread should be shut down for liability purposes. If it is serious, you should go here www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ You can get necessary help there.

Under either condition, i'm locking this thread.