"""I can't explain what is upsetting me because it isn't something that can be directly told"""

==> I m maybe stupid to ask you this,
but are you sure u cannot say it ?

In a way, our best way to help you is to know what is your problem.
Even if, I know, our help may be small ...

are you alright now?

Just find someone who you can talk to. It doesn't need to be anyone you know, there are professionals who can give you the right attention. If you don't have money to afford a private psychologist/psychiatrist, go to your local hospital and ask for advice. Above all, don't be ashamed of going to a doctor, having the courage to do so is a big step already.

Take control of the situation before it controls you. Psychological problems are hard to solve, and it takes a lot of time, but never despair because step by step, you'll get better.

a depressed person usually make thing bigger than it really is
so you should share your difficulties with us

I was bound by depression for a long time. For me it was because my parents beat me and threw me out of the house a few times to sleep on the street. I was young, didn't know what to do, and it all eventually led up to a blotched suicide attempt. Worst decision of my life and I'm soo glad I failed.

I am mostly over my depression now and what helped me more than anything was to find a friend and talk to them about everything. It took me 7 years to ever admit to anyone that anything ever happened because it just felt so hard to talk about it. But when I did finally open up to that first friend and a huge cry on her shoulder I felt much better. Eventually I became more open and honest with all my friends and I felt even better.

Please, find a friend, open up to them, don't do anything stupid.

You can tell us man. i know you dont want to, but dont be ashamed about it; im sure we have all experienced depression at one point or another (i know i have). We are all friends here, were not going to judge you. If you really want to, im sure you can send any one of us a PM; im sure everyone on this site would be willing to give advice and help in any way possible. Just dont do anything drastic man.

I think I've been where you are now AoA, feeling like you can't go any further. I stopped eating, talking to friends and family, doing anything I enjoyed, and felt like every day was a struggle for a long time, but I eventually worked my way through it, sometimes you just need time to heal your heart, sometimes you need to talk to someone professional, or even just a friend.. Looking back, I'm really glad I didn't do anything drastic.

I know at the time, I didn't think anyone could feel as bad as I did, but now I know, it's not true, lots of people go through these things, and lots of people make it through, and so can you. Just don't ever give up on yourself.

I wish I could explain...

King_of_the_castle, yes, I have not eaten any food for over 3 days, I can't bring myself to eat anything, that, and I am lacking alot of sleep.

I was sent home from work today because I was a mess, my boss was real good, he doesn't know what's going on but he knew I could not be at work.

you should really try to eat and sleep, going without is only gonna make you worse.
we cant do much, you have to find someone you can talk to.
but first you should try to get some sleep, its midnight down here in brisbane. i should probably be sleeping too lol.