I was bound by depression for a long time. For me it was because my parents beat me and threw me out of the house a few times to sleep on the street. I was young, didn't know what to do, and it all eventually led up to a blotched suicide attempt. Worst decision of my life and I'm soo glad I failed.
I am mostly over my depression now and what helped me more than anything was to find a friend and talk to them about everything. It took me 7 years to ever admit to anyone that anything ever happened because it just felt so hard to talk about it. But when I did finally open up to that first friend and a huge cry on her shoulder I felt much better. Eventually I became more open and honest with all my friends and I felt even better.
Please, find a friend, open up to them, don't do anything stupid.
