Pajderman said:
Oh how i wish that any physical activity made me feel recharged, or just about any mental upside. |
I won't deny it's nice in the moment (after the endorphins kick in) and visually I'm in top condition. On the flip side, I hurt all the time from overdoing it. Joint pain, wrists, elbows, hips, neck pain, back pain, hence the recovery needed from sleeping. It hurts to move in the morning. But it's the only way I can feel safe and relaxed. Ironically the hardest part for me is to run less as with Autistic inertia I tend to run to the next town before turning around and then run 25km in 2 hours. Not healthy to do that every other day. Yet when i can't run I get incredibly irritated, restless, panic feeling, meltdown or shutdown from extreme cortisol build up, so I also run through injuries, don't give them time to heal and have had to limp home when my knee or ankle gives out. Illiopsoas (groin strain) / abductor tendinopathy and ACL are my main issues with running so much. I'm risking chronic adductor tendinopathy if I'm not there already. (Hurts right now while it's running day again) Trading short term mental relief for long term physical pain :/
