If it hurts, it's because you know you long for better, you deserve better. Being lost, not finding out your reason for enduring, makes you feel despair, and what an awful thing that is.
My commendation is not to expect "solutions" from a single source, but to grow as many relations with things and people as possible. Trust your potential and give yourself freely to as many things as possible, more joyfully and less concerned in the "return" of your efforts.
There are many amazing experiences and people ahead of you. Trust yourself, trust the providence, and enjoy the ride. It is important to consider yourself the hero of your story and not the victim of it.
Wonderful things sometimes are like fruit. They demand time and love and patience.
This is my experience. I hope it helps.