Okay, 3 months later, time for an update I suppose.
I had an operation that was supposed to remove the tumor, but it failed, as they found they wouldn't be able to do so without taking out a chunk of an important nerve. As a result, I'm now booked in for a second operation the day after tomorrow, where they'll be doing a nerve graft. Hopefully this one is successful. Still no word yet on if it's benign or not as they'll determine that after they take it out.
My mental health has gone completely to shit, anxiety that it's cancer and will kill me has taken over my life to the point where I feel physically nauseous with fear 24/7. The stress has gotten so bad that I'm getting opportunistic infections just cos my immune system has effectively collapsed. Apparently severe enough stress will do that.
To be frank, every day is a struggle at this point. Still, looking on the bright side, if this next op is a success at least it'll be out in just over 48 hours. And depending on how long it takes to get a result, I might be able to put all this behind me by this time next week, if all goes well.
