When I was in high school, I watched one of those beheading videos. My naive dumb ass didn't think much of it and casually searched and watched the first one I came across. Almost 18 years later I can still hear the person gargling, I can still see the victim's decapitated head being tossed in the sand. I couldn't sleep for 3 days. It really messed my teenage brain up. Til this day I can't watch videos of people getting hurt. You know how some videos on the news say "be warned, these videos are graphic" ... well I'm the person who switches the channel when that's said.
Anywho, all this to say I can relate.
I am the black sheep "of course I'm crazy, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong."-Robert Anton Wilson