There was a documentary film released in 1998 named Dirty Work, in which the central was theme was about taking crap from people. Check it out sometime. I think Vivster is on the right track with his comment. As far a your fantasies about getting revenge.....IDK if that's necessarily a bad thing. It could be kinda therapeutic. You seem to feel it's unhealthy though, so I suppose you're on top of that.

Chinese food for breakfast