Are you a prude?

[CrazyGamer2017]

Kyuu said:
As a total closet pervert who isn't in the least proud of it, I'm in a weird position.

I used to loathe my extremely high sexual drive because it was at odds with my ideas, beliefs, and what I defined or sensed to be true beauty. Perhaps that contradiction subconsciously contributed to my eventual exit of religion so as to make me feel less of a hypocrite but ironically, I still dislike that side of mine. It's as though I inherently know that it's wrong. I settled with belittling my petty existence/value rather than feel guilty every time I do something supposedly shameless or disgusting.

From my experience though, morally reserved people tend to be more intelligent, informed, trust-worthy, and pleasant to talk with, than cheap/trendy chicks, playboys, and freedom-obsessed people! Maybe this experience is misleading and is making me more judgemental than I should be. Maybe religion and/or culture still have their roots intermingled with the core of my soul. Frankly, I don't know and I don't care!

Oh man having to cope with your natural urges and at the same time the contradictions of your cultural and religious beliefs. I wouldn't wanna be ya.

I hope for your sake that you'll eventually realize that sex is totally natural and actually healthy just as food, good sleep etc.

Also I'm no psychiatrist but I have heard that this contradiction in some extreme cases can lead to neurotic behavior, not saying it's your case, just saying I heard it's a possibility.