| VGPolyglot said: I don't know how to tackle this question, because this is very sensitive, so please guys if it brings bad memories or is hurtful/dangerous to respond, please don't. However, I generally think about killing myself a few times a day. It's not serious; or rather, it's not something I seriously consider. But it is something that I'm like "I wonder what'd happen if I killed myself", and I try to imagine different ways of how it could be pulled off. Is that normal for you guys? Do you have passive suicidal thoughts too? I really hope I'm not crossing a line here by asking this. |
I think I've had the same sort of things... Let me describe it, and you can tell me if it's similar to yours.
Now and then, I'll have thoughts about killing myself, but not like "life is so painful, I can't go on any more etc."
It's more along the lines of "Hey I wonder what it would like to be a football player". Just kind of like a weird daydream with no really strong emotion behind it.
Anyway, once it started to happen more often (along with some other things), I began weening myself off antidepressants. Not trying to knock antidepressants in general, but suicidal thoughts can be a side effect. If I could have talked it over with my psychiatrist, I would have, but she's kind of shit (I'm seeing a new one soon) and when I mentioned being worried about side effects, she quickly through out the name of another antidepressant without even asking what the side effects were... so I thought I'd be better off not taking them till I had someone actually helping me monitor them.
Anyway, the thoughts have been decreasing in frequency since I stopped taking the meds (bupropion if you're curious) so it's definitely something to talk to your doctor about if you are on medication.
