Autism, this is how it's affected me. Has it affected you?

[OdinHades]

snyps said:

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 I can't be happy unless I feel like there is plenty of money to secure the things I need and want. I get completely depressed when I feel poor, like nothing makes me happy. 

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Well, what do you think? That other people are perfectly happy when they don't know how to pay the next rent? Life isn't always about joy and happiness. You just can't always be happy. Just struggle yourself through the bad stuff and look further ahead. And think about your family first and about yourself later. We all are depressed from time to time. I went through two years of straight hell on earth, but I made it through. Just don't whine about it. Do something about it. It might not work the first time. It might not work the second time. But if you keep trying, it will work eventually.

I don't have a perfect solution for your problem here, but what I'm trying so say is cut the self-pity and take responsibility for you, your family and your life. Don't try to look for the faults of others, it won't do you any good.