think-man said:
Low self esteem Lack of empathy Lack of direction, dont really know what i want in life Feel as tho iv underachieved Suicidal thoughts No motivation No goals anymore, all have been crushed or forgotten
Im a programmer working for a huge company in Sydney |
That right there is kind of scary. Mixed with all the other things, it can lead to you hurting people left and right (like you presumably have to your wife and friends by ousting them). Despite my inclination to judge, I will say it takes courage to admit your faults and know that there's something missing in your life which is why you are seeking out help. However, with this kind of honesty (and your dream job salary), I'd guess talking to a professional is the best option. Like others have said. The problems you have seem to go deeper than the typical "I'm sad because life isn't going my way" syndrome people mistake for depression. Get help, dude.
