Don't seek help or advice from forums is my first advice. My next advice, seek professional help. You have a mental illness and when you have a serious illness you go to the doctor. AND you get the support of family and loved ones to help you through it. But get diagnosed and start treatment first, that way when you talk to your family you actually have a professional opinion to present to them, which helps them with acceptance that you do have a serious condition and not just making shit up.
“The fundamental cause of the trouble is that in the modern world the stupid are cocksure while the intelligent are full of doubt.” - Bertrand Russell
"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace."
Jimi Hendrix
