Kind of reminds me of Secret Life of Walter Mitty except the pornography and other stuff. If you are okay with your current situation, i guess that it is alright to continue doing what you are doing. If you are not, as it seems somewhat from your posts. You'll have to make changes in your life to get different results. I remember you wanting to quit video games after GTA 5 as you felt that you waste too much of your free time on them and don't make productive changes in your life. Yet, you just carried on with it. Am not poking fun at you for that as making changes can be quite hard and we've all been there. All i want to say is that if you envision a different outlook of life for yourself, you'll have to start doing and looking at things differently.
I hope it works out for you either way.
