Im not sure if you're trolling me or not. I have no desire to kill people or hurt them, in fact I would say sometimes the opposite, but random people. Not those I should care about, such as seeing people suffering (random people) that does make me feel hurt and remorse, I even donated to charities because of it. But when I look at those I should feel that affection for, its lost, I cant find it.
I have even looked at people and thought what would they look like if I peeled all their skin back, see the real them, but I would never act on such a thought, I go out of my way to block it from my mind.
My parents divorced when I was young, and though I went on to live with my Dad the relationship is somewhat strained. Could that be the cause im my lack of feelings for those close to me?
I should have just edited my first comment. What I was saying was you sound like the character from Dexter except minus the impulse to kill (In the show he has no feelings for anybody and just pretends to immitate emotions that most people find normal) Except he has the urge to kill that he can't control.