Yeah well, I went on a holiday for 8 days from dec 2012 to jan 2013.
I saw a lot of couples holding hands and such and it just made me so lonely at times. Especially at new year's eve.
I went on to say sorry to this girl in and she ended up calling me a brother. I was looking for a meaningful relation ship with her but I was depressed for a very short time afterwards. (A few minutes or so lol). But then I thought... well she "brother zoned" me, I've got to start somewhere and I think being a 'brother' to this girl is a good place to start.
Im working on it 
Despite those depressing few minutes, it somehow gave me great satisfaction that I didn't emotionally hurt her as much as I thought I did. But then I also got a response indicating that she doesn't like me as much as I thought she did. After all, its only a fb message and I've yet to see her face to face since then.
Kinda weird that I feel so damn attracted to her but not to other more attractive girls (she's cute nonetheless).
Edit:
Before my holiday. I was, by far, in the closest possible moment to forget her. IE: For months I tried to opress my feelings for her and this was the time when I felt the least attracted to her. The week that I chose to finally end any sort of contact with her was the week I dreamt of her. (I can also interpret the dream in great detail).. Then I became crazee for her again.
Sorry for the off topic post, but I just got to let this off my chest.
Yay!!!
