The Depression thread

[Valdney]

I do not believe in depression at all.

So much shit I have been through in life that surely made me sade but, I do not remember being in a state of depression ever.

When I was 18 years old I moved to America and left many, many things behind, my mother, my sister, a group of very close friends, a very fun life overall. I traded all that for a supposedly better financial life, which never happened.

When I arrived in America I obviuosly spoke little english and I decided to go back to High School (I had finished it back in Brazil already) because I figured that would be the fastest way to learn english (I was right, within 6 months I was already considered a bilingual by some teachers). I just happened to be sent to a high school where the majority of the students were these kind of high middle class kids, and I just felt like a fish out of water, all throughout my 2 years y in that school. Coming from an environment where I was surrounded by friends, those were very tough years. In the same period I lost my grampa, whom had come to America to visit me and some relatives and ended up dying here. Still, depression could never catch me, and of course, I walked out of that school with my diploma feeling like a winner.

Then a little later on in life I met this women to whom I decied to get married. The biggest shit I put myself through. 6 years of hassles and a lot bad experiences whiled married to this women. I even had a bad knee injury(I was still married) which kept me from playing soccer for 3 long years(the thing I love most in life, even above gaming. lol), I had so much shit going on in my life while with this women, I didn't even have money for a surgery. Then I finally divroced her (no kids with her, thank God). Getting divorced is never easy, because marriage is this thing you invest your life in and when it fails, you're left with this frustration feeling. Again I got over it really fast and moved on without feeling "depressed".

After 12 years in America I am moving back to Brazil in May. America has taught me many, many things but, my financial situation is pretty much the same as it was 12 years ago. I made a lot mistakes(marrying the wrong women was the biggest one of them all) during these 12 years, I missed many opporunities to improve my life. I did feel a little frustrated for a little while but, I now feel as strong as ever and ready to move on. I got married again. This time I chose really well (be picky about your women people).

So, to me being "depressed" is a matter of choice. Pretty much everyone goes through hard times and when they are gone you can choose to become bitter and "depressed" or smarter and strong.