I don't believe in either the big bang or the Biblical creationist theory. In fact, I see the Big Bang as creationism in disguise.
I don't see the Big Bang as a scientific theory because it is not fallible or testable in an experiment. It exists only as a weak interpretation of evidence, and makes up unobservable phenomena (Dark Energy and Dark Matter which account for 96% of the matter and energy in the Universe) to make the Big Bang theory work; these are as likely as a Christian God, because they were made-up by humans, but never observed by humans.
I also don't see the Abrahamic God as likely because even among the Abrahamic faiths and sub-faiths there are large disagreements. The holy scriptures were written for political reasons, and violate observed history if examined as a history. The God of the Jews resembles the God of the Christians even less than it does the God of the Muslims. The God of the Catholics does not resemble the God of the Bible. Even the Messiah of John's passages does not resemble the Jesus of others, even though they have a similar history. I think that allowing one single regime (Constantine I) to determine the Bible for all time is not something to put your faith in; those men were not good people, Constantine was a usurper and demagogue, a ruthless warmonger who raised armies which dwarfed those of Augustus and Julius Caesar, and conquered the known western world; who burned plundered from England to Asia. Over 270 Holy Christian books were rejected by him and his council, simply because they didn't agree with them; only 30 were accepted... Even though some are from different lines of thought. Christians generally accept John's Messiah and Jesus to be the same being - and Satan, Lucifer, and the Devil to all be the same being - but I find I can't even accept that. I don't think Satan as the prosecutor of humanity was evil, just an adversary who will show why people are not worthy of God. Lucifer (the morning star), the fallen angel, on the other hand, seems to be more the very concept of greed and hate which Satan obviously sees as bad traits - it should also be mentioned that Lucifer himself is a Roman-Christ Cult myth based on planet Venus.
On Jesus - I think that he is a personification deity, and that he exists to show love and empathy in the form of a human, to relate to humans. I do not think that he was meant to be a historical figure by the authors. If Jesus is love, then I can accept statements in the bible that essentially say that only through Jesus can one find true peace. As a simple historical deity for worship, that makes no sense to me. Many christians love Jesus and hate Satan... If that is the case, then why do they accept a Jesus in the Book of Revelation who takes on the role of Satan as the prosecutor of humanity?
If Jehova (or Yaweh) of the old testament resembles any god, he is more like a member of the Roman pantheon; a god who is more like a mythical character than a philosophical concept.
As for what to worship? Why not the Sun, the Earth, and their children? Afterall, the air that we breath, the food that we eat, the clear liquid water we drink, it is all because of those two objects. The sun is like a father who gives light and heat to the Earth who in turn gives birth to all the life on the planet. If you look at it this way: some of the Greek and Roman cults seem to be much more accurate than any religion we have today. In fact, many traditions in Christianity are owed to the Cult of Sol Invictus and Magna Mater which are just that concept, the Sun and the Earth.
I describe myself as a little dose of toxic masculinity.
