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[Gilgamesh]

d21lewis said:

Gilgamesh said:

d21lewis said:

 

What a way to start your day!

Jesus christ, I don't think I would of been able to handle that. Good thing you guys showed up.

Well, the guy still died.  That sucked.  All we did was keep the crowd back, direct traffic, and stuff.  Funny thing--I think I'm missing something that I should have.  Like a part of me.  After that happened, it had no effect on me.  Nothing.  It's like I should feel sad or something but I don't.  I don't feel anything.  I know nothing's more sacred than life but even being there as somebody died had zero effect on me or my day.

It's sad.  You guys sorta make me feel like a hero but the fact of the matter is that I don't want any one of you to be like me.  Things are different when you see how things really work--that the police aren't always there in the nick of time, that we aren't all knowing or whatever.  One of the guys on the scene even recognized me.  He said "Officer Lewis, you police up here, now?" It's like my presence alone was reassuring but I didn't really do anything.

I'm rambling.

Well I guess that's just how it is having a life behind the badge. You have to be professional in extreme situations like that. What good is a cop if he's running around like a chicken with it's head cut off freaking out during an accident? It's the price you pay but then again you are saving lives at the same time, you must feel good about that, no?