This is different based on the individual. Many people who evaluate personalities define a personality heavily on if they need relationships. Judging by your experience you probably value relationships less than some. If you valued relationships at some point you would find the couarge to make one. People who must have a reltionship for happiness will consistantly have them because they almost need them to live.
Obviously, you want a relationship or you would not ask for advice, so I say you have to try at some point no matter the awkwardness our anxiety it makes for you because it will make you fell better about yourself and at least you tried.
Woman also suck, I fought a dude the other day over my on and off girlfriend which is really annoying because she will be leaving to another state soon. Than I had to listen to her friends analyze me when they thought I passed out. Good riddance. It has been worth it overall though.
